YOU DECIDE.

Never says LOVE HURTS. That isn't true. LONELINESS hurts. REJECTION hurts. LOSING SOMEONE hurts. ENVY hurts. Everyone get this things confused with love,but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that doesn't hurt. If it is,that's mean all the LOVE from your family are such a waste then.

LAST NIGHT.

Hard to talk about last night. STUPID moment sort of. Apa pun,i would like to say THANK YOU VERY MUCH TO ALL FRIENDS THAT HELPING & SUPPORTING US. It means a lot to me & my boy. :')) I'm still wondering why human like them still exist. LOL. Loves to bother people's life while their life are way just the SAME but dun wanna admit it. HEY,I'M NOT TAT IDIOT LIKE YOU TO KNOW. After you accuse him,you blocked him. The rest only know how to like. WHY ??? KALAH SUDAH KA CANNOT ANSWER MY QUESTION ?? PENIPU PENIPU RUBBISH THATS ALL YOU KNOW HOW TO SAY. How about i give you MORON TALAM DUA MUKA PRETENDER & MORE I CAN GIVE ABOUT YOU. Don't think we're far,i'm not going there anymore. WE'LL WAIT & SEE WHO WILL COME THERE SURPRISEDLY. Hari tu,masok store semua..HAHAHAHAHA ! & YOU kalo tak nak cakap dgn leo,tak yah la..n yet you PRETEND TO BE NICE & TALK WT HIM INFRONT OF ME WHILE I CAN SEE YOU ACTUALLY HATE IT. I told you already DON'T MESS WITH ME EVEN MY BOY. MESS WITH HIM,MEANS YOU MESS WITH ME TOO. AND YOU'LL PAY FOR WHAT YOU DONE. MARK MY WORDS & I SWEAR.

MOOD. MOOD. MOOD.

Not in a good mood. :(( feel wanna punch someone on the face cause they deserved it. GAHHH !!!

WOOT WOOT !

Just reach home from kampung. Saya sangat la gumbiraaaa mlm ini. I passed my english course exam,FINALLY ! Can't believe i passed coz the exam is very difficult. Kalah SPM ! Yet i can get "B" ! hahaha. Almost to "A",aduiiii. But it's okayy..as long as i passed for my future. HOHO. Mummy wanna celebrate it by sponsoring me McDonald. Heeee ~ I thank God for giving me chance to improved. Really do ! :))

MY IMPERFECT & PERFECTION :)

IMPERFECT
* I hate my messy hair. SERIOUS. Maklum la rambut nipis..harap glak mok rambut tebal. Hmmm.
* FREEDOM. Hard to go out when i don't have what called FREEDOM. I'm the only child,of course. -_-' But still,i hate being control too much. At least to let me out have some fun with those i want.
* MILK. I hate MILK. I may love to drink it when i was a baby but NOW,*puke*.
* MY ROOM. hahaha. I have a verrryyy MESSY room till i don't even have space to sleep. Currently sleeping in the living room !! hehe. What to do,i have a very big teddy bear that i don't even want it to be dirty & just leave it on my bed,"SAFELY". Which is why i can't wait to move to my new house next year !
* BODY. skinny...how lots of food i ate,my weight never gained. GAHHH !!!! Something wrong with the worm inside my stomach that can't make me at least "HOT". LOL !
* SHORT-TEXTING. Never ever try to send me short text like just,"OWH.." "NOPE." like HELLO,i send u like 100words yet u just replied me like that ??? -__-' For now,who ever i knew send me short-texting,don't bother to think why i don't reply u. :P
* NOSE. Can anyone seriously tell me how to remove this blackhead on my nose ??????????
* My ASS. Please give me tips on how to make ure butt round. At least got shape laa..hehe..


PERFECT
* Perfect boyfriend ! LOL !! First thing on my mind..hahaha.
* Fair skin..caya laaa..i wont go out when there's still SUN. Sometimes would be okayy..everyday?? I rather SLEEP..hehe..i only go out at night,okay..i love my fair skin even people says i look pale & sick. -__-'
* FAMILY & FRIENDS ! i just LOVE them so muchhh. Thanks for always being there for me. And never let me down. I LOVE YOUUU !! :')
* My SMILE. lol. Dad says my smile like Mickey Mouse/Minnie Mouse.
* I love my MAKE-UP too. EVERYTHING.
* HEELS & HANDBAG. wohhoooo !


I guess that's all i can think now about my imperfect and perfect. How about your's ??? :)

MUMMY MUMMY OHH MUMMY.

Dah gik muji2 Leo depan aunty,cousin semua. Duhhh..you make me miss him so badly bahhh. Sampe ngeso gmba mek duak gik. She said,"Lam gmba ya biasa2 jak rupa nya P mun ngga depan2 nang kdk omputeh ehh. Idong mancung. Nang kdk laki spanish jak." -__________-' by the way,line too slow but i can blogging ! hahaha. HAPPY:D right now tgah minum kopi,dudok2 and listening to my mom and aunties gossiping. Daknya tok mun jumpa,nang kdk City Never Sleeps lah..perhhhh. I MISS MY LOVE DAMN MUCH. Dia semalam lucu2 saja..& NAUGHTY ! hehe..bluekk. I guess that's all am gonna share ohhh. Will update you again,DIARY. :) <3

NEW SONG ADDED :)

Careless Whisper by Seether. \m/ Btw,esok balik kampung. Will not be updated for 3 days. Duuuu..BORINGGGG ~

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,who calls you back when you hang up on him,who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,who holds your hand in front of his friends,who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... 


The one who turns to his friends and says,thats HER... :'))

YOU. LOVE.

You've been making me smile with all your texting. Even though you're not in a good mood,pressure with your problems,i appreciate it very much you still managed to make me smile and never let me down. I tried my best to cheer you up too,love. Like i said,who likes their loves one HURT,SAD,DOWN & UPSET ??? Of course you feel them. And yeah,i miss you like crazy. How i wish i can fly just to reach to you. I know you miss me too. I envy those who get to meet their loves one everyday..everynight i look at the stars,wish there were a wishing stars cause all i ever want to wish is YOU BY SIDE. :') I won't even let go. Some may suicide when losing their loves,but i won't. As long as i'm alive,i won't let go,love. You're all that i wanted. 4YEARS we built this relationship through HARDNESS,ENVYNESS & SADNESS,yet we still here,REMAIN. And will always be no matter what. It's hard to find a guy who appreciate you more than anything. It's hard to find a guy who always makes you laugh & happy even when he's not okay. It's hard to find a guy who is willing to sacrifices just to have a perfect life with us. It's hard to find a guy who understand you even they can't but they tried and won't stop. And it's hard to find a guy who accept you for who you are,inside and outside cause for all that they knew,you're their DRUGS. They're crazy with you and they LOVE you.




Sincerely typing,
Shelly <3

DECEMBER :)

OHH DECEMBER. OHH 2011. I hope the next new year will be great. More happy moment ! LOL. Can't wait for my next holiday to Langkawi. :) And can't wait for Chinese New Year too ! Angpao lai.......hehehe. But yea,all i want for 2011 is my love. I hope he come back. I really missed him so bad....i know he missed me too...being apart is not easy thou. Having distance relationship truly not easy. Tapi selagi ada cinta,selagi yalah bertahan kann. Just want him to hurry home. I wanna hug him tightly and never let go..huhuhu. Jiwang sudah saya. Ya jak la tek mok post. By the way,Kuching hari ini sangat hujan lebat..hahaha. No mood to go out and no money,no talk. CITTT. Time to delete some unknown friends from my Facebook. Jgn marah yerr..i have the right too. :)

Ell Ohh Vee Eee :)

He made me smile last night. I love him !!

(OUR TEXTING)

Me : I miss someone ehh..


Him : I miss someone too....


Me : She's lucky. :)


Him : Yup. And she's reading it.

(2ND PART)

Me : I love you sampe xpande lejuk !


Him : I love you sampe lejuk pun bencik i.


HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. :)))

HAD A GREAT DAY :)

I finally meet him after so long. God know's how much i miss him ! Can't described how excited i am when i look at him from far and run to hug him. Awww..i really hug him tightly..he did the same too..hehe. Then,we went to Nose(KLCC) where he works,and he bought me HEELS & SLIPPER ! My birthday present ! Thank you so much,cayanggg. I really love it. He even gift me a sling bag..yg ada bulu2 punyaaaa..manyak cantik jugaaa..hahaha.. After that,send mummy to Saloon..gara2 mauk blow rambut saja. -___-' we went to Sungei Wang. Daddy bought kuih for me and him..i ask him to take a lot since he haven't eat yet,I KNOW..hehe..i told daddy he will pay,still daddy pulak yg sponsor semua except the ticket to Theme Park Genting. Dia belanja. :) We had so much fun in Genting ! I never thought i will go there AGAIN WITH HIM. The first time i went,salu jak angan2 & wishing he's with me. And YES,my wish came true ! Thank you,GOD ! Yang susah nya,he dun play any extreme game. -__-' Jadi kanak2 riang jak la gi Ghost House,Dinasourland,CrazySpace......i think that's all..belum puas main,hujan sudah turunnnn..and we're stucked. No umbrella..just standing under the bone of dinasour wait for rain to stop. Makin la lebatttt & SEJOKKKKK ! hurhhh. We hugged each other to keep warm. How i love that moment..hehehe. He just can't stop kissed my forehead and my faces. (ANGAU datang) Awww...like him,i really wished those day never ended. Time ya jak ehh ada privasi..hehehe..daddy & mummy went to Casino. Daddy won only RM75. -__-' first time,he dun dare to bet a lot..sikpaa..try again next time..hahaha. After Genting,we went for makan near cayang hostel. Cayang and daddy memang sama2 kaki bola. Thats why mummy said like father-in-law,like son-in-law..alu sukkk cayang......hahaha..cayang and mummy pun ada sama..HATE GINGER..hmmm..*geleng palak* Anyway,i really had fun..gosh,how many times already i said that..hahaha..but really ! I'm very HAPPY. HAPPY WITH HIM ! I love him so muchhhhh. My ONE & ONLY. mmmuuuaaaaaaaaaaaahhxxx !! ♥♥♥

HAPPY !!! :)

KUALA LUMPUR ! here i come ! so over-excitedddd !! hehehe. Gonna meet my love,yeay !! I miss him shooo muchie ! I love you,cayang !! Muah muah ! hehehe. Knpon sik tido mun dah sik sabar glak. Waaaaa... FINALLY ! After soooo long didn't meet him. For sure gonna bite him..rawrrrr !! can't wait ! can't wait !!! <3 <3 <3

BIRTHDAY !!! BIRTHDAY !!!!

Birthday coming SOON huh ! The very first time in a year i'll be celebrating my birthday with my PARENTS. o_O I'm sure its fun thou. With mom and dad. TETTTT ! Wonder what i will get for my present. Hopefully a new HANDPHONE ! lol. Can't believe am turning 19. NINETEEN ! Next year TWENTY. Duuuu...cepat naa tahun berlalu ehhh. Yet i still behave like a kid. Hurmmphhh. Gotta go. Dad gonna bring me to KFC ! ROAST baby ! haha. I miss Kuching by the way. Johor is BORED..but FUN TO SHOPPPPP. :PPP

HELLO BLOGGERS !

HAHAHAHAHA. CUTE kannnn ?? :)

BEGINNING of US.

HOW DO I MET HIM ??? We've been a FRIENDS since high school. I get to know him from my ex,that is his bestfriend before. It was FUN to know him cause he's not like the other guys i knew so far. He loves to create jokes and makes his friends laughed so badly but God know's what is on his mind. He can be like us,GIRLS at the same time ! Hahaha. He will sing along with me & my girlfriends. Crazy laughing,gossiping etc..that makes girls really fall for him..include my own bestfriend. Hohoho. Except for ME. When i'm still crazy in love with my ex,my friends will start to talk about him. NON-STOP. Cikgu mengajar,mereka layan angau. Haha. And they also bring his sweater to school to comfort them while he just "Owh..okay..sot..hahaha"..he doesn't know my girlfriends in love with him ! The more he treat them very good as a friend,the crazier they fall for him without thinking "DIA SUDAH BERPUNYA" lol. He was still with his ex too that moment..and his ex now are my little sister. CAYA LAA. hahaha. The same moment i never realize or knew he's IN LOVE with me. The first person he confess to is his bestfriend,Mimil. Alu knk cop GILA & CARIK MAUT alu. Still he doesn't seem to care. I treat him good as my brother without knowing dalam diam2 dia jatuh cinta sudah.. -_-' Then,my friend,Sherry began to fall for him after my two bestfriends give up since they knew he got a girlfriend. He confess sherry is the first girl who ever dare to confess her feelings to him..i was there,when it happens and i can see he's damn speechless looking at me..hands shaking ! mcm mauk kemeyh ada juak. hahahaha ! Then i went to other place..came back and meet up again,i saw sherry face looking at me VERY DIFFERENTLY. Mok pdh nya manas,ada juak..geram,ada juak...but she just take a deep breathe and let go all..i ask her how was it??? She answered,"Nya sik sayang ku lebih dari kwn." With her sad face. Otedahhhh. Alu frust kawannn. But they're still friends..turn to be brother & sister. GOOD,kan ?? After a few months,he doesn't hang out with us anymore. Sherry told me he's having a crisis & breaking up with his girl. I kinda sad to heard it cause he might need a friend now to comfort him..to not make him sad..everyone does need a friend,kann?? But then i don't text him. I don't even look for him beside minding my own business. After that...,i dun remember much how we can hang out again..all i remember we were playing game at Alacart..sooo FUN till he became naughty and turn off the plug at the machine gun game. Nang kdk miak kecik ehh slumber jak ttup plug TV game ya. Then his face turn,"ALAMAK" hold my hands and ran away. The moment he grabbed my hands,memamg mcm knk sambar kilat jak. I suddenly felt different when all this while he hold my hands,i felt NOTHING. I ignored it and act normally. Wait,i am normal..huhu.. Sherry came to me and say,"Ku mok pdh something jap lok." Okay,went far abit from him and sherry's boyfie. "Mun ku pdh,ko boh pdh ngn Leo,kay?? SUMPAH & JANJI ko sik kan pdh pa2.",she said. I answered,"Errr..aok2...pahal??" She look at me seriously and said,"Ku jealous ngn kau. U noe kan ku nang suka glak2 ngn Leo. Mok tauk apa mek duak klaka time ko chow gi tmpat lain riya?? Ku tyk nya bhaa..,testing2 nya..ku tyk ko ada suka sapa2 sik dalam group kita tok..leo jwb ADA..time ya ko ngn Anne(NOT THE REAL NAME-CENSORED) kan cun2 limpas mekorg n nya ngga kau ya,ingat sik??" i answered nervously,"Aok....." Then,she said,"Ko phm sik mksud ku tok ??? Time nya ngga ko,ku nang xtauk bha yg nya sebenar nya....(muka mok ngis),SUKA KAU. Ku tyk,nya ngga kau n mdh NYA la. Ku nang ngis trus time ya tauk sik..KETAM(Kecewa tambah merana) arrr...nang sik sangka ehh ! ku pK nya suka Anne P nya jwb bukan.." (@#$#^^$!^@$%$$%!^)-that's my reaction,SPEECHLESS mainnn. I look at him,sherry stopped me not being too obvious. I look at sherry,guess what i do?? i LAUGHED. Dtg gila. And i say to her,"Ko boh molah ku suspen oww..muka ko tok muka plentey jak..hahahahaha..yea,right." Sherry stared at me and say,"Ku tetak sik tok?? Sik nak?? Benar tok,shell. He really likes you. That's why ku xlayan ko glak after tat day..ku nang jealous bhaa...bt now ku cma syg nya sbagai abg ku,ku pdh la ngn ko P ko mdh ngn leo ndah..mati ku lakkk..ku dh janji ngn nya." OMG OMG OMG OMG !!!! -on my mind that time. THIS CAN'T BE,THIS CAN'T BE ! Then,sherry hold my hand and joined them..leo look at me n ask pahal muka ya?? he looked at sherry differently and sherry said xda pa2..ku polh nya suspen bhaa..nya gik shocked ya..he answered,"Bena ndak kaaa" i talked,"Eh,xda pa2 la..sherry ya caka juak..pK apa tek ngga ku serious glak..hurhhh."-SKIPPED on the night we text each other after the day out. Our texting :

           Me : Uie..mok tauk cita lawak sik???

          Leo : Apa??

           Me : Sherry mdh kau ada hati ngan ku..hahahaha ! Bodo ehhh.. Tiba2 jak mdh cmya..neyndak ku sik                    cayak. Phm2 la sherry ya.

           Leo : Actually.,its not a joke. I do like u. But that doesn't mean i want u mine. Ku tauk kau gerek sapa nektok. I hope this won't make our friendship ended,k.

           Me : Waaa...tttt....OMG. i duno wd to say. but i'm glad u confess it..dun worry,we'll still be friends.

Since that,we seldom text each other like we used to. Both feel awkward,i know that even he didn't tell me. After breaking up with my ex,then he dare to text me. After school,his other bestfriend,Felix the cat we call him will came to me and disturb me said YERRRRR....then whispered,"Leo kirim salam." I look at him at the Fata Hotel,he smiled and wave goodbye to me. I response back. But i was still in a broken-hearted situation..he know i dun seem to be happy. I KNOW he really tries his best to makes me laugh badly. And i did..apa boleh buat...i can't stand when he create jokes. Boleh masok raja lawak. Then,he'll say,"Haaa..tetak pun..i love ure smile,sweetie." (Dtg angau wen typing this) hehehehe. God know's how i feel that moment. Whole my life,i never felt so HAPPIER with someone i try to loved..in the end,i DO LOVE him very much.

Yupp. That's US. Shelleo. I love him ! There's one day i ever asked him,"How you can fall for me?? What did i do that makes you in love with me??" He answered,"Remember the moment we played at the swinging? Felix keychain drop down the floor. You wanna took it,but i stopped u cause its danger when the swing still swinging speedly. You know,the moment i hold your hand,i feel like there's lightning shot me. I feel different. I went home,all of sudden i smiled alone thinking back what i've done till my mom knock my head n says i'm crazy smiling alone. That time i realize i'm in love with you." I told that to my friends and cousins,they all give me the same answered,"Aww..just like fairytale ehh..sweet.." Yeah,it is. IT NEVER EVER HAPPENS TO ME. I'm very grateful with what he did to me. He's my sweetest thing i ever had. My memorable thing that i dun want it fades away. Eventhought now we dun seem to be like before we used to,still i love him just the way he is. I really love you,cayang....truly madly deeply do love you. How lucky i am to have you. REALLY. <3 <3 <3 XoXo 

BEGINNING of ME.

That's ME ! :) I am chinese & bidayuh daughter. Mixed,yeah. I look like my dad,mostly heard of. I'm his sweet child. Daddy's SWEETHEART !! :D But that doesn't mean i'm a spoiled brat,huh. This year turning 19 on this coming 7th November a.k.a 7Eleven is easier to remember. STUDY ?? ermm..dun think so. I wanna WORK. Currently taking English courses,about to end this month.,hopefully if i passed my exam. Then,i'll be taking computer courses so i have more experience about business. LOL. Enough about me. Guess i'm over-excited for my coming birthday ! Hehe. Adios,bloggers. ! <3